"Someday it's gonna make sense."
A line from Michael Learns to Rock's song.
All my life, I've been wondering why they were who they were, why they were acting the way they did, and why they did what they did (or specifically, why he did what he did one day on December 2004).
I've thought of many reasons as to why these are the things happening to us. But with every answer I can come up with, there's still a question or more left unanswered.
Which means I still haven't made full sense of the world around me. I still haven't made full sense of what our family was and is going through.
I would not go into details talking about what specifically about my family I am talking about.
It's too personal that I couldn't let other people know about it. It seems so huge that I can't even get hold of it.
Information Overload.
Maybe these were also the reasons why no one in the family, even our own parents, told me and my two sisters about this.
It was too big to handle by three little girls.
I don't know why our mom decided to tell us about this on Saturday, June 26. I'm just glad she finally did. I'm just glad I finally understand everything now.
Everything makes sense now.
I know now why they were who they were, why they were acting the way they did, and why they did what they did (or specifically why he did what he did one day on December 2004).
Everything had a reason.
In our hands now are the lost pieces of the puzzle. We now have the answers.
The only question left unanswered is:
Are there any other mysteries yet to be solved?
I don't worry that much now.
Why?
'Cause I know and I believe with all my heart that whatever we go through, wherever we are, and even if whether what happens seem pointless...
Even if we still can't make sense of what's right in front of our eyes...
(as what Michael Learns to Rock said in his song)
"Someday you're gonna find the answers
To all the things you've become
And all they've done at your expense
Someday it's gonna make sense."
